hehehe, hit the nail on the head in the last paragraph.
i would just like the chance to meet him. and the bit where you say about him being in control and demanding . but yeah i dunno either. i've always fought everything myself. fought bullies/ teachers/ friends/ parents... when he stepped to the plate in '07 i felt like i belonged. he bought out the best in me? that probably sounds clique. it doesn't mean to be. but i've just been in control of everything so far in life. even if it seems to me like it isn't.
he came and sang his songs, made me feel good about being the outsider in my group of friends, made it ok to be wierd. he created a world in '07 where most people feared but others embraced. now... he opened yet another to that world. the dark part if you like. shown the demons in his closet, those teenage years. it's a dark place, and it has changed him slightly. he has a real sense of darkness.i liked him before, but now... i dunno? i'm completely in love with him. that dark place in his world is where i spent my time.
this all probably sounds like crap, and people reading this will be like 'wtf is she on about?' but it does all fit into place. i think he's like wine. get better the more mature he gets. or am i thinking of something else?!
xx