oh yes, it's weird knowing that he will never know and probably be unable to "get" things and ways he has changed in each of us. He has way too many fans now to be able to know each individualy and yet we want him to KNOW just how much he means to each of us and just how much we appreciate what he has done and continues to do to make things happen for the better inside us.
Mika is a wonder, and yes I "feel" things for him too, it's a very strong fondness, that makes me long to hug him to say thank you, your a top guy.