Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 I laughed at everything's when I was a behbeh. Even Stephen King's IT. She's pretty damn clever! Haha, that's impressive!!! She's not as funny as she used to be. My brother and I are tearing sh*t up walky talky style. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 My friend is trying to get me to drink with her. STAHWP. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarryEyed<3 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Share Posted December 24, 2012 Haha, that's impressive!!! She's not as funny as she used to be. My brother and I are tearing sh*t up walky talky style. Hardly. I just didn't know I was supposed to be scared of it then. xD No, but she is insightful. I haven't had a walkie talkie in ages!! My sister and I used to talk with them after bedtime. xDxDxD Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 Hardly. I just didn't know I was supposed to be scared of it then. xD No' date=' but she is insightful. I haven't had a walkie talkie in ages!! My sister and I used to talk with them after bedtime. xDxDxD[/quote'] I love clowns, but those are pushing the limit. She makes good points. That's what my brother and I are doing. XD We're talking about green cats, Courage The Cowardly Dog, and Catdog Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarryEyed<3 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Share Posted December 24, 2012 I love clowns, but those are pushing the limit. She makes good points. That's what my brother and I are doing. XD We're talking about green cats, Courage The Cowardly Dog, and Catdog I don't love clowns by any means, other than how much they frighten some people. But I've never really been scared of them myself. True, and delivers them in a timely manner. Plus Kermit is cute, I miss Courage The Cowardly Dog so much. I loved that show to pieces. :c Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 I don't love clowns by any means' date=' other than how much they frighten some people. But I've never really been scared of them myself. True, and delivers them in a timely manner. Plus Kermit is cute, I miss Courage The Cowardly Dog so much. I loved that show to pieces. :c[/quote'] I think they're fascinating. Kermit is hideous. XD I loveeeeddddddddddddddddd that show. So. So. So. So. Much. Its so trippy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarryEyed<3 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Share Posted December 24, 2012 I think they're fascinating. Kermit is hideous. XD I loveeeeddddddddddddddddd that show. So. So. So. So. Much. Its so trippy. I don't think too much of them, really. What's fascinating? Trippy? A bit. I thought that it was gorgeous and amazing. Something intangible about it. I can't quite express it right now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 I don't think too much of them' date=' really. What's fascinating? Trippy? A bit. I thought that it was gorgeous and amazing. Something intangible about it. I can't quite express it right now.[/quote'] The way they fake emotion for entertainment. I don't know. I just love the whole idea around them. Yes trippy! And it's totally perfect in the way thy it pulls you in and makes time pass in a sick and twisted way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarryEyed<3 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Share Posted December 24, 2012 The way they fake emotion for entertainment. I don't know. I just love the whole idea around them. Yes trippy! And it's totally perfect in the way thy it pulls you in and makes time pass in a sick and twisted way. Actors and dancers and everyone else do that too, you know. It really never had much plot, did it. But that didn't matter. Ever. It was completely messed up and sometimes it questioned reality. That my dear is quality entertainment. xD Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 Actors and dancers and everyone else do that too' date=' you know. It really never had much plot, did it. But that didn't matter. Ever. It was completely messed up and sometimes it questioned reality. That my dear is quality entertainment. xD[/quote'] Yes, I know. But it's not the same. Actors and dancers bend reality. Clowns create their own. It's different. Mmmm sometimes it did. But most of the time I think their main goal was to scare people as bad as possible. XD But I loved the creepiness of it. Growin up, I had a weird craving for fear, and CTCD really hit tw spot. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 Im losing muscle mass. I never should have stopped qorking out. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarryEyed<3 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Share Posted December 24, 2012 Yes, I know. But it's not the same. Actors and dancers bend reality. Clowns create their own. It's different. Mmmm sometimes it did. But most of the time I think their main goal was to scare people as bad as possible. XD But I loved the creepiness of it. Growin up, I had a weird craving for fear, and CTCD really hit tw spot. I think I have to disagree with that! Dancers and actors who are good at what they do are good because they can create their own reality. Not losing themselves in the process- because you can't fake having a heart- but you know. The best actors tend to be a bit shy and wary. But when they get into a role, they are that role and they own it. They can do that version of life. It's tremendously freeing. It never really did scare me... I just thought it looked cool. I sat in rapt attention while it was on, just held my interest like that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarryEyed<3 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Share Posted December 24, 2012 Im losing muscle mass. I never should have stopped qorking out. Aha yes you should have. xD Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 I think I have to disagree with that! Dancers and actors who are good at what they do are good because they can create their own reality. Not losing themselves in the process- because you can't fake having a heart- but you know. The best actors tend to be a bit shy and wary. But when they get into a role' date=' they are that role and they own it. They can do that version of life. It's tremendously freeing. It never really did scare me... I just thought it looked cool. I sat in rapt attention while it was on, just held my interest like that.[/quote'] Aha yes you should have. xD But what they do is different from clowns. I'm not talking party clowns. I'm talking hard core old school clowns. Really? It scared me. Not enough to make me stop watching it, but enough to give me that rush. I could totally see you zoned into a hardcore trip fest like that. XD But Grace, since I stopped, two things might happen. I'm going to turn into a big fat blob. Or I'm going to turn into that nasty meth head lookin person I used to be back when I was sick. Maybe ill do some running. It keeps you in shape and is low impact. Running it is. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarryEyed<3 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Share Posted December 24, 2012 But what they do is different from clowns. I'm not talking party clowns. I'm talking hard core old school clowns. Really? It scared me. Not enough to make me stop watching it, but enough to give me that rush. I could totally see you zoned into a hardcore trip fest like that. XD But Grace, since I stopped, two things might happen. I'm going to turn into a big fat blob. Or I'm going to turn into that nasty meth head lookin person I used to be back when I was sick. Maybe ill do some running. It keeps you in shape and is low impact. Running it is. Clowns are clowns. They do exactly what they're supposed to do, which is entertain. But they're in face paint, so it's markedly less difficult. I just don't see them or what they do as all too special. xD Really. Nothing seems to scare me. Yep, I was in the zone.. As I always attempt to be with things I appreciate. Hahahahahahahaha Micah. You're supposed to gain weight, smart one. Hate to break it to you, but I'm feeling enormously frank and don't even try it. You just now stopped dance! You can lose the weight after your baby. Please. You set yourself up for this, just face it. Do what's better for the baby. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 Clowns are clowns. They do exactly what they're supposed to do' date=' which is entertain. But they're in face paint, so it's markedly less difficult. I just don't see them or what they do as all too special. xD Really. Nothing seems to scare me. Yep, I was in the zone.. As I always attempt to be with things I appreciate. Hahahahahahahaha Micah. You're supposed to gain weight, [i']smart one.[/i] Hate to break it to you, but I'm feeling enormously frank and don't even try it. You just now stopped dance! You can lose the weight after your baby. Please. You set yourself up for this, just face it. Do what's better for the baby. Maybe I've always pictured clowns as living in an alternative reality. Like, their faces aren't painted and everything they do is real. It's a calming thought to me. I love them. You never seemed to be scared by much. Are you scared by ANYTHING? But Grace. My body is a temple. Temples are strong. I hate those kind of situations that gaining weight is inevitable. I've already gained 23 pounds. Twenty Three. That's nuts for me because its all baby weight. That sh*t is not normal for me. I just reached a decision. I'm done caring. I'm just going to chill for the rest of my life. Ill teach tumbling and things like that because I like it. Not for the exercise. I'm. Done. Im feeling oddly whiney and b*tchy tonight. Feel free to ignore whenever you want. I just feel like ranting about things I can't change. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarryEyed<3 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Share Posted December 24, 2012 Maybe I've always pictured clowns as living in an alternative reality. Like, their faces aren't painted and everything they do is real. It's a calming thought to me. I love them. You never seemed to be scared by much. Are you scared by ANYTHING? But Grace. My body is a temple. Temples are strong. I hate those kind of situations that gaining weight is inevitable. I've already gained 23 pounds. Twenty Three. That's nuts for me because its all baby weight. That sh*t is not normal for me. I just reached a decision. I'm done caring. I'm just going to chill for the rest of my life. Ill teach tumbling and things like that because I like it. Not for the exercise. I'm. Done. Im feeling oddly whiney and b*tchy tonight. Feel free to ignore whenever you want. I just feel like ranting about things I can't change. That's an entertaining notion! I prefer mimes to clowns, honestly. Yeah, a few things scare me. xD I'll be really honest. It doesn't matter if that's normal for you. This is a new situation and the only thing you can do is deal with it. You can stop caring if you want, do whatever you want, or whatever. But be prepared to face everything that brings you, because especially after all this taking some of that responsibility is inevitable. It's fine! I totally get it. You're fine. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 That's an entertaining notion! I prefer mimes to clowns' date=' honestly. Yeah, a few things scare me. xD I'll be really honest. It doesn't matter if that's normal for you. This is a new situation and the only thing you can do is deal with it. You can stop caring if you want, do whatever you want, or whatever. But be prepared to face everything that brings you, because especially after all this taking some of that responsibility is inevitable. It's fine! I totally get it. You're fine. I prefer clowns over mimes, but that's only because I've never reaaallyyy looked into mimes much. That's impressive! I used to enjoy scaring myself so bad that it was almost sick. That feeling is just so pleasurable to me. Its like, adrenaline in a totally new form. I think my main problem here is that I'm confused. I need someone that had stood where I stand. I mean, sure. I know people. My cousin. I have a few friends with children. But it's just not the same. I'm not close to them, and They're all in totally different boats. I'm just tired. I'm tired of Gavin to watch everything I drink. Of gaining weight that I can't help. I'm tired if not being able to dance. But most of all, I'm tired of not being able to button my pants. That's my #1 at the moment. I just want to be able to wear my normal pants. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarryEyed<3 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Share Posted December 24, 2012 (edited) I prefer clowns over mimes, but that's only because I've never reaaallyyy looked into mimes much. That's impressive! I used to enjoy scaring myself so bad that it was almost sick. That feeling is just so pleasurable to me. Its like, adrenaline in a totally new form. I think my main problem here is that I'm confused. I need someone that had stood where I stand. I mean, sure. I know people. My cousin. I have a few friends with children. But it's just not the same. I'm not close to them, and They're all in totally different boats. I'm just tired. I'm tired of Gavin to watch everything I drink. Of gaining weight that I can't help. I'm tired if not being able to dance. But most of all, I'm tired of not being able to button my pants. That's my #1 at the moment. I just want to be able to wear my normal pants. The theatrical aspect of mimes tends to attract me more than the up frontness of clowns. Well, the things that scare me aren't trivial, I can't just play with them like that. They're more like... Real life fears. Situational fears. They can devastate a person. I like to do something else instead. I always give myself that feeling of being hyper aware of my own mortality. xD Reality could give a damn if you're tired of it. Edited December 24, 2012 by StarryEyed<3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 The theatrical aspect of mines tends to attract me more than the up frontness of clowns. Well' date=' the things that scare me aren't trivial, I can't just play with them like that. They're more like... Real life fears. Situational fears. They can devastate a person. I like to do something else instead. I always give myself that feeling of being hyper aware of my own mortality. xD Reality could give a damn if you're tired of it.[/quote'] It takes serious talent and creativity to be a mime. It's such a delicate thing they mess with. Real life situations? Like murders and such? But reality is a b*tch. I don't like to associate with her much. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarryEyed<3 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Share Posted December 24, 2012 It takes serious talent and creativity to be a mime. It's such a delicate thing they mess with. Real life situations? Like murders and such? But reality is a b*tch. I don't like to associate with her much. Really it is. It's an underrated art form in my humble opinion.. To entertain, to amuse, to imitate. I admire it. Think realer. Sucks to be you. :3 Maybe reality isn't as nice, but I know from personal experience that there will be times you have to face it. Times you can't avoid facing it, and so let's humor me and face it- this is one of those times. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 Really it is. It's an underrated art form in my humble opinion.. To entertain' date=' to amuse, to imitate. I admire it. Think [i']realer.[/i] Sucks to be you. :3 Maybe reality isn't as nice, but I know from personal experience that there will be times you have to face it. Times you can't avoid facing it, and so let's humor me and face it- this is one of those times. And it's such an easy thing to break. One false move, and the magic is lost. Like going crazy? Or did I go in the wrong direction? I know all about facing reality. But this is something else. I mean, I've died before. There's been times in my life when my heart literally stopped beating. But I survived those kind of things by avoiding reality all the time. Even when I was staring it in the eye. (I hope that made sense. It's more an emotion than. State of being.) This is such a slow gradual process. I have too much time to thing about it. Like, scars are one thing. Babies are another. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarryEyed<3 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Share Posted December 24, 2012 And it's such an easy thing to break. One false move, and the magic is lost. Like going crazy? Or did I go in the wrong direction? I know all about facing reality. But this is something else. I mean, I've died before. There's been times in my life when my heart literally stopped beating. But I survived those kind of things by avoiding reality all the time. Even when I was staring it in the eye. (I hope that made sense. It's more an emotion than. State of being.) This is such a slow gradual process. I have too much time to thing about it. Like, scars are one thing. Babies are another. Exactly!! A fragile web. It could all come crashing. Also, porno mine. Wrong direction, yeah. Try again. I like having people guess. xD And if you're not right I may as well tell you. Oddly enough the imminence of losing life is nothing near alike the imminence of giving life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Micah Posted December 24, 2012 Share Posted December 24, 2012 Exactly!! A fragile web. It could all come crashing. Also' date=' porno mine. Wrong direction, yeah. Try again. I like having people guess. xD And if you're not right I may as well tell you. Oddly enough the imminence of losing life is nothing near alike the imminence of giving life.[/quote'] Hahaha like in that music video. Ajxjajxjajxjjxhh I DON'T KNOW. Im lost. That's my problem. I have no experience with giving life. Just losing it. And I'm starting to discover they are handled in two different levels of conciseness. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarryEyed<3 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Share Posted December 24, 2012 Hahaha like in that music video. Ajxjajxjajxjjxhh I DON'T KNOW. Im lost. That's my problem. I have no experience with giving life. Just losing it. And I'm starting to discover they are handled in two different levels of conciseness. Exactly. Panic references ftw. :33 I love references. I posted Toxic today with a caption "time for one of earth's traditional ballads" and a gif of the doctor dancing... FLEW RIGHT OVER EVERYONE'S HEADS. We need more DW fans around here. xD Well, first of all, I'm really afraid of losing all control over something. Being shut out, ignored, helpless, anything of the sort. Some control I can function on, but one sided complete loss of any input is upsetting to me on the highest degree. Especially when my trying to regain some speck of input is seen and recognized but denied. I might not be so scared of it if I didn't know that at that point, my own personal pain and dismay is inevitable. It's why I can't stand being shunned. I b r e a k d o w n. Well all I can say is roll with the punches. You can't do things the way you're used to doing them anymore. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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